Why so late

why would you ask me those words again after so long why would you ask are we going to be together after the ways you treated me i am not a toy that you can play with and put back on the shelf just like you i have feelings but i don't know why i stayed with you for so long a life filled with off an on again relationships. a time full of happiness and pain and slammed doors and dial tones on my end of the phone when you'd hang up i wish that i could know how you feel and what you truly felt for me but i can't base my life on being with someone who doesn't know how to treat me right that's why i had to move on and not call you back I've found someone who treats me right

I’m at a lost for words I don’t know what to say I don’t know what to feel today was good but I feel that I need to cry like I have been keeping feelings suppressed inside I know that no one likes to cry but it makes me feel better when I have a lot of feelings stored inside of me that I can’t explain or show I feel the need to talk about my problems but right now I don’t have the right person I want to tell just yet that’s a different story I mean post J

dear diary

Dear dairy have you ever been in a situation where you can’t let go of the past like you remember voices in your head of people saying negative thoughts about you.. Have you been told something negative about yourself that you feel you can’t change why do I feel this way who do I constantly keep blaming myself I keep telling myself that I should do better be better how can I break these bad habits. That I have I want to do better I want to be better I want the finer things in life so I have to branch out and stop being afraid. It’s time for me to be free,

what to wear

Today i'm thinking about what to wear just for any occasion like the movies etc

Indescribable

I'm Wishing on a star

When i used to wish on a star it would be about a ex lover in the past but now i'm just wishing on a star to wonder where my new lover is i wonder if thoughts of me occur on his mind. i'm dreaming of you every day and i spend my nights wishing on a star that perhaps next weekend you will be holding me tightly and kissing me all night

diet and hunger pains

I'm doing exceptionally well on my diet but i have those days just like anyone else when i get upset about not eating all of the junk food everyone around me is eating.. it's getting crazy sometimes i dream of pigging out on junk food but this diet is the best thing that i've ever done i feel much beter and i've alos lost a lot of weight i want let a few moments of pleasure from eating a lot of junk food keep me from reaching my goals. but truthfully i can't wait until i get to the point where i can eat my favorite junk foods in moderation.

i'm not loving you i'm just missing u

i hate this feeling when you're over loving someone but you miss them constantly i wish i could get over the time we shared and erase you out of my head but i can't just yet i guess it's normal.

You and me

You and me are so confused we don't kbow where we stand or am i the only one who doesn't know where we truly stand.. so i'll just wait and see what we really are

Breaking free

yesterday i learnt a valuable lesson and that's to let go of anyone who is bringing you down.. and that it what i've decided to. although it will hurt bad it's just something i have to do i just got tired of telling a certain friend of mine of many years that i only wanted us to be friends.. i'm not going to tell him that i want to stop being friends with him i'm just not gong to answer his calls.